Thursday, February 9, 2012

Random things that may or may not have to do with RUNNING

I needed to get out of the house today and into the sun's shining light. I didn't feel the need to run(and runners, you know when you NEED to run) but I just needed to be out there, and outside of my thoughts. They've been taking over lately and this past week I've just been thinking and eating, and eating and thinking. Yes I got a run or two in, but not enough to negate the ice cream and the entire box of Famous Amos chocolate chip pecan cookies(hey, I didn't eat them in one sitting...I ate them in two sittings)and the sleeve of Ritz crackers that I bought for my son(he said they were too crumbly, and I couldn't let them go to waste )

Much has happened over the past 2 weeks. Too many acquaintances have passed away. Like 3 to be exact, and all of them under the age of 40. My heart aches for their families, and I don't want to imagine what they must be going through.

There are two things that I can't deal with very well -  death and suffering children

I can't stop thinking about the guy who murdered his daughter by throwing her out of the car window, or the guy who hit his daughter in the face with a brick(both of these happened right here in my neck of the woods) and then my husband tells me about the sicko teacher in California. I can't even THINK about that story and what he did to those children. And the dad who killed his two sons by blowing up their home...what was his name...Powell?

I don't watch the news(we don't have traditional tv, so I really truly don't watch the news, I can only watch whatever is on Netflix, so my days are filled with Fresh Beat Band repeats and Super Why). I get "news" from Facebook or from what friends and family tell me. I think I've been happier since we switched to Netflix-only tv. I remember when I taught kindergarten and a mom told me at our parent-teacher conference that they didn't have a tv in their home because it made her husband too depressed. I didn't get it back then. I thought they were kinda weird actually, I mean who doesn't have tv? Now I get it. I really, really get it.
So I took my son out for a walk in the jog stroller. Remind me to never trust the weather(which I have to look up online, since I don't have tv, remember?) b/c it stated "today is much warmer than yesterday" which was bull. Luckily I put the heavy coat on my son and I had a blanket in the car. So I wrapped him up and we walked 3 miles. He wanted to get out around 2.75 miles, and he was so cute running down this hill, throwing a rock along the trail and looking back at me all smiley. At one point he ran over to me and puckered up his lips for a kiss. I guess that was his thank you for this fun time we were having. That's been weighing on my mind as well. Knowing that next year I won't be a stay-at-home mom anymore. I know we'll still have great moments like this, but they won't be as often. How can they be? I will be working full-time, and he'll be at school full-time. That's sad. Time does fly, and he keeps growing up. I want him to stay innocent. I want the wackos of the world to stay away from my family. I want him to be safe and happy. I want to live in a bubble. But like Dori says to Marlin in Finding Nemo..."if you never let anything happen to him, then nothing's ever gonna happen to him."